Today I had a lesson in knowing that the good you do is remembered.
I was sacked from a position I thought was good for, I knew I was doing a good job, I knew I treated my staff with respect and admiration. I beat myself up because I knew I did nothing wrong to deserve the wrong done to me, but doubts filled my mind and made me believe that I am not the person I have worked so hard to become.
I started at a place of new employment and struggled with the doubts that filled my mind, the ones that pull you down, and make you feel inadequate. The lies you tell yourself, because .. well that’s what the world tells you.. you are not worthy of having good thrust upon you.
So I started at my new job, my first few weeks were unsettling for me, because the loss of confidence makes you weak. Each week, I have been encouraged by my new boss, she has come along side me and shown me again, that I am a good person, that I do have a heart for the job I am employed for, and slowly my confidence has increased.
Today, I visited my old workplace, I was greeted with such love, such admiration, such sadness for my loss. It’s this stuff that builds your confidence, it’s this stuff that tells me, I am a good person, I do do a good job, I am good at what I do. My confidence helps me to do a good job.
So when life sends you people that upset your confidence, remember there are more people that honour and respect you and their encouragement gives you strength.